I have to say this whole COVID-19 mess has me a bit stressed out. I've already had a telephone conversation with my neurologist on his day off (which was amazing and so cool by the way) and he told me basically "do not leave your house" "stay put". Which is the obvious choice right now yes. But what that means is that I am having to put my husband at risk of going out there in the midst of chaos and infection central to forage for groceries and to go to work.
I listened in to the conference that MS Views and News had yesterday evening and got to ask the very obvious question of "my husband is an electrician and must go to work, he can't work from home. How should we make sure he is sanitized before he gets back into our home?"
The answers were wonderful and everything we really already knew in our gut but when asking questions during any time of chaos you almost hope to hear something new. Something you didn't know before. A magical answer sort of speak. I guess part of me was hoping to learn something I didn't already know but what it do do was offer some confidence that my gut and instincts were on point when it came to what to DO about it.
My husband is an electrician. Her works for the Water District in our area so needless to say it is not a job that he can operate from home. Management has adjusted his schedule to working 3 (12 hour days). Which i know is going to be crazy on him. He's no spring chicken. But he's a hard worker and committed to keeping his family afloat.
He went back to work yesterday and spent hours disinfecting all of his equipment. Making his truck his "safe zone" where nothing that could be contaminated would be let into.
The night before last when he was due to go back after being home with us for a few days was sleepless. I tossed and turned knowing that in a way my health kind of lies in my spouses hands.That's scary to anyone no matter how responsible your spouse is. My neurologist has told me point blank due to chemo drugs still being in my system I am even higher at risk and if infected it would be detrimental to my life. Seriously? I can't even believe i'm writing these words. Who the heck ever thought something like catastrophic would actually ever happen?
I didn't even go into this blog with a pretense of a silver lining or motivational outreach. I guess i'm just simply venting. Not letting myself completely fall into the fear. However yes I am nervous for my husband. He's the most hard working person I know other than my Father. He's dedicated to our family. He's dedicated to my health and I love him more than anything on this planet.
Writing this blog is also keeping my mind off of devouring everything in my fridge. Why is that when you are home you want to stuff your face more than when you are not at home? It's like we all turn into squirrel mode and want to store our nuts in our cheeks until this is all over.
Be safe, stay home, practice social distancing, and if you spouse must go out and work be smart about it. I have him leaving all of his clothes in our garage in a trash bag. We're being smart. It's alot to think about when your brain isn't programmed to think this way. It's almost like "pretend everything has blood on it". Right? easier to program your brain like this I suppose.